Why am I afraid?

I am 74 years old and am divorced with MS. I lost my son 10 years ago and can barely walk and need help with my wheelchair to get to Bible Study, church and doctor’s appointments. So why am I hesitating to pray the “Anything” prayer. What else can happen to me?
I liked what you said in the introductory lesson that “the bad things are going to happen anyway” and this is true. And, God is faithful to give you the strength to get through the bad time. But I’m still scared. Perhaps at the end of the study, or sometime during it, I will get the courage to pray the prayer.