Where My True Worth Comes From

“Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:1-2

The Lord has been teaching me so much about understanding where my worth comes from lately. He has seen me struggling with putting my worth on things that are not of Him. But, of the world.

Because we live in this world.

So, it’s hard not to as we are bombarded every moment of the day with what the world deems worthy. Waking up in the morning to going to bed at night. It is so hard not to get sucked into the world’s views as I want to be looked upon as worthy. I want my children to be looked upon as worthy. But, is that really what I say I want? For my children? Am I making choices that show that I want to look different? Or is it just words that I am saying?

So, I need to stop and say to myself. Wait. What does the Lord say?

I am not believing Truth.

Capital “T” Truth.

My worth doesn’t come from so many factors that the world places on us. On me. It comes from doing the Lord’s work for us today. However small the world may see it to be. Because it is not small. Not in the eyes of the one that I say is the most important one in my life.

Jesus spent every day focused on the now. Focused on spending time with helping those that the world deemed “unworthy” to show them that they are worthy to the Lord of the Universe.

So, my steps to love and serve a friend in need,

pray with my child,

share some of my story with another parent from preschool.

That is where my worth comes from.

Because in that moment I am doing exactly what Our Father created me to do on this earth. To be His hands and feet. Not a hand that is too worried about what others think of her. Not a foot who cannot do anything because the world deems their worth something other than what the Lord deems worthy. But, be exactly what He created me to be. Hands and feet that are imperfect but working to show others that these hands and feet are not mine.

Not the world’s.

But the Lord Jesus Christ’s.

I am not going to end this all tied up in a bow perfectly, because I am not perfectly put together. I do feel the Lord helped me to see this Truth, but I don’t have this imbedded in me the way I need it to be. This is a real and raw struggle that I have every hour of the day.

But, that this idea of worth, if it is truly what I want my children to focus on in their life then I need to get this figured out a little better. I need to “walk the walk” as my children will follow my example, not my words.

So, Lord, I pray tonight that you will help me as I go to bed. Tomorrow morning when I wake up. And every moment in between that I can allow Your Grace to cover me and to truly be filled by You. By Your Worth. That I remember that You are the most important thing in my life.

Lord, You are first.

That I start making the choice to fight for that to be true.

As it is a fight and will forever be on this earth. Because we are in this world. But we are not OF this world. So we are in an uphill battle because of that choice.

So, on with the fighting gloves I go.