my future

everything… my husband. my children. my future children. my heartbeat. my own life. i have been diagnosed with a chronic illness… one that can take my life 20 years from now, or as soon as tomorrow morning. i may not see my sweet children make start or finish kindergarten… i may not be around to greet my precious husband as he comes home tonight from work. but, i must trust in the Lord’s goodness, His graciousness, His glory, His mercy, and His sovereignty. i will treasure today. i will treasure this moment. i will sing His praises as i take my handfuls of medicine. i will sing of His name as i embrace my family and tuck my children into bed at night. i will rejoice that “to live is christ and to die is gain.”