We adopted Abby when she was 21 months old from Kazakhstan. Months later we realized something was very wrong. After a year and a half of testing and the craziest amount of seizures (sometimes over 50 a day), we almost lost her and were given a diagnosis of mitochondrial disease. Her illness/struggle/diagnosis has consumed my soul in so many ways and remains one of my deepest spiritual battles. God has blessed her with mercy and healing in so many ways, yet she remains delayed in several areas and still battles seizures. The spiritual roller coaster I remain on continues to suck the life out of me. Is it founded on a spiritual battle? Can she be released/totally healed? Do I continue to fight for her healing/life or do I let go? Praying and fasting and begging and letting go and taking it back has exhausted me deeply. I live frustrated. The worst is when she seizes while I am praising God that she went through the night without one. It is a slap to the face and a wound, one of millions, to my soul. I am not sure I know how to let her go as I feel as her mother I have to remain on the battle field for her. I will order your book and pray God walks me through it and speaks to my heart.