When God gave me the word surrender along with the verse Galatians 2:20 I had no idea what God had in store for me. He’s been laying open hands on my heart for a long time. Over the last three years I lost my father-in law, my brother-in law to cancer. My Dad is currently battling lung cancer. I felt like grief was the only emotion I had. I’ve always thought the hardest part of the journey of life was losing people we love. I was running in every direction. To my mother in laws to help ease her pain. Then constantly to my sister who at 57 was a widow. She had been through an abusive marriage before and finally found an amazing man only to watch cancer ravage his body in the ugliest of ways. Watching my father who has always been strong, hard working and loved working in the yard turn into a very frail man on oxygen totally unable to do what he loved all his life. I wore all there pain as I am someone who loves deep and will give til I have nothing.In December 2014 I had nothing left. I got so run down from running to everyone that in January of 2015 shingles entered my life. To say it was a wake up call is putting it mildly. The rash appeared on my forehead and almost went into my eye. The rash has cleared but the crawling symptoms remain still as I write my story. I have been to every kind of doctor and I get the same answer it has to run it’s course in my body. I’ve been prayed over more times than I can count yet still it remains. God gave me a real awakening to the fact that I was running so much for others trying to fix and make it better that I wasn’t trusting him to take care of the people in my life. I’m choosing to stop running,trust God completely, and live each day with open hands of surrender. I’m going to follow the path he has for me wherever it may take me because I know in the end it will lead to my forever home. No more sorrow, tears ,or pain and what a glorious day that will be! I pray everyone who reads this that God will stir in their hearts to seek to be willing to give it all for the sake of Christ. It’s hard but it’s so worth it.