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Feel this huge knot in my throat. A reminder of what I said and prayed to God a few it’s seem weeks but it’s actually been a few months of giving it all to God. You say “all ” yes “All” , gulp my desire is to someday my children will find this and maybe learn a few things from my do overs and my I’m sorry struggles. back to my original thought … I committed my prayer to give my Family which is my Anything , calmly tonight ( not really) I am reminded that tonight I prayed that . Yet I struggle and wasp for air as it seems to me that some parts of me are fleeing in outer space. I’m wrecked and seeking God Almighty in my Anything prayer trusting him with my daughter,sons 3 of them and of course my marriage. Heart broken of the should’ve, yes I went there … Currently listening to worship music to redeem all that was lost . My innocence and being stubborn and naive all together at the same time . I’m reminded of his promises , Gods promises. Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
2 Corinthians 1:20-22 For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God. Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
He has set his Seal and has given us the Kingdom ! I am running to him tonight and overwhelmed by his love . I receive it ! I trust him ! I love him and his ways are higher than my ways and his thoughts are higher than my thoughts (paraphrased) Isaiah 55:8-9 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,neither are your ways my ways,”declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. I don’t want to should’ve this thought so I went ahead and inserted the scripture . Thankful for more of him and less about of me tonight, last but not least scripture that I landed on tonight by Gods grace and goodness. John 14:15-17 “If you love me, keep my commands. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you.
Tonight’s thoughts and obedience brought to you by a redeemer who deserves my Anything ! God it’s all about you ! My heart is full as I read his sweet scripture and love for me and my family tonight.