Fear I am afraid of rejection. I do not risk my heart so it will not be rejected, yet I long for a loving marriage. Guest I’m right there with you, friend! I recently realized that my years of acting like I wasn’t interested in dating was more of a coping mechanism to hide the fact that I wasn’t being pursued by a guy and was my way of trying to make it appear that singleness was my choice, which was (and still is) very far from the truth. It’s hard, isn’t it?