I never expected to have a special needs child. I was not prepared for the immense amount of work; physical, and emotional, and spiritual, that this would entail. But what has surprised me above all else, is my need for control. Having a child who defies all control I try to exhibit is forcing me to relent. It is God’s design for me to give Him everything. It is my sin nature to resist. But this has pushed my limits in ways I never expected and come to find out, that is a really good thing. Anything.