I am tired of being controlled by what others think of me. I am tired of making decisions, disciplining my children, and exhaustively over-committing because of my fear of “missing out”. The Lord has called me to live in a fish bowl as my husband and I do ministry at a guest ranch where I am consistently being watched and observed. I am daily deciding and at times, moment by moment deciding to surrender this all consuming desire. My audience should be but One, our Lord and Savior and I should be only after His glory and edification. Every decision, every question, every relationship should be moved upon only if the good Lord wills it. I am confident that this is what the Lord desires for me, to bring me to my knees as a wife, friend, mother, and mentor and I praise God that in my weakness He is made strong.