Anything! Those are some big words for a college student to say. Though I have prayed the prayer before and reaped amazing outcomes this time was much different. This time God showed me that even though I was thinking that I was willing to give up everything there was always that one aspect that I still clung too. It was not until God rocked my world that I realized what I was holding on to…TRUST! Trust that God will come through no matter what I think. Trust to give him my entire life. Trust to know His plan is always greater than I can imagine.
While reading the book, I could feel God calling me to a different plan than what I was desiring. A plan to stay where I was instead of leaving and pursuing the life I dreamed. Staying and ministering to the people so close to me for the past four years. Easter Sunday I wrote in my prayer journal, “I am ready to do ANYTHING, no matter the cost to me.” The very next day, God striped me off everything I had planned and worked for. Injuries, fallen internships, and travel arrangements lead me to a summer of complete prayer and study of the Word. One night as I was praying to God why it had to be this way as clear as day He said, “How can you minister to a group of people who are geared to seek wordily success when you are seeking the same things and not relying completely on ME?” “Trust in the Lord with all your hear and lean not on your own understanding.” -Proverbs 3:5
My senior year of college I did just that. I waited and I trusted in the Lord. As hard as it was for my controlling self to do, I waited on the Lord to provide.
And the Lord provided in only a way that all glory can be made to Him. As the semester was getting closer to the end, God provided me a job, a house, a Godly roommate, and furniture to furnish the house all in one week. I did not seek but simply was aware of when God called. After everything happened and as quickly as it did, the only thing I could do was praise.
“But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint” -Isaiah 40:30
This verse became my life verse. Without true surrender and a complete trust in God I miss out on everything he has planned. Without trust, my life is not a complete reflection of how God uses those willing to bring light to the darkness.
“So I say to you; Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” -Luke 11:9